Easier as time goes by

People say as time  goes by, life gets a little easier after a loved one has died. I am finding that the second year is harder than the first. Is because the numbness has worn off? Is it because there was so much loss in such a short time? I find myself wanting to share so much with you as the kids/grandkids get older. I find myself needing you. Needing your thoughts or your opinions. The other two people I’d go to are also gone. One died months before you and one years before you. Three people I could trust, be me, open up to, be loved unconditionally, and no be judged on my thoughts and actions. Maybe I put myself into projects to deal with that grief during the first year and now I don’t have anything to do to “avoid” dealing with the loss. Now it’s “real”. I’ll have patience this next year and have faith my grief will ease up and maybe even open myself up to another like I did you three. Until then, I will lean on my faith and pray for strength.